Col 3:25

"Anyone who does wrong will be repaid for his wrong, and there is no favouritism" Col 3:25

I started this entry with a grim verse and you might be wondering why.

Well, as you all know, I have been receiving weird smses from people I don't know, claiming that they had chatted with me on facebook and that I had given my number to them.

Anyway, the third 'stalker/unknown person' to sms me appeared. I received an sms a few days ago and promptly ignored it. However, yesterday I received another one from the same person and in his sms he placed his name there.

So that got me wondering whether it was really done by the same person using several numbers. I went and checked my facebook for anyone called "E**** K***" and to my surprise, out of the list there was a 'friend' of mine, who had a friend of the same name (it seems no hacker went and added the friend under my account)

And that friend, coincidentally had the same English name as me. Andrea M**. So I checked her profile out and saw that she like bodybuilding (which is what the original "Stalker" does as a hobby) and warning bells rang in my head. I had actually accepted her out of naivete, because I merely thought she was someone who wanted to be friends with another of the same name and also because she looked like someone I know, it wouldn't be too bad.

I'm such a total idiot, aren't I?

Anyway, I was clearing of people I don't know from my list before this coincidence happened and had deleted her when I saw she liked bodybuilding, but I had never though of checking her friends list for the 'stalker' 's name. And when I did, he really was in her friend's list.

Which concludes that possibly this Andrea has been chatting up people online and giving out my number generously to all those people.

I'm not really sure what I should feel at this moment.

Anyway, what concerns me is the fact that I had allowed a window of opportunity for her to gain access to most of my information and pictures and seeing that the other parties concern don't seem to have any heart, they might take my pictures and photoshop it on porn pictures or sign me up for a weird ass dating site etc etc.

Another thing that distresses me is the fact that I don't believe I did anything wrong. My only fault (in my friends' opinion) was that I was too nice. I wasn't at fault at all. Is it my fault that he was the one scaring me till I cried?

Is it my fault that he acts in such a predator like way? Going to people's room, following them around, being absolutely clingy and frightening, especially with his big built body? Is it my fault that I was scared when he was waiting for me in the darkness, and ran out to "talk" to me. Is it my fault that I thought it was the last straw when he refused to give me space and in the end, rubbed his disgusting sweaty hand against mine, and not taking it seriously when I was obviously angry?

Is it my fault? Have I done something so wrong. So unchristian like, so out of the ordinary? Is it truly my fault if everyone took my stand when they were told the story (although he still delusionally believes that there are people here who likes him) << apparently not. Is it my fault that every girl here felt the same way that I did, but smart enough to move away fast) Is it my fault that I reminded him of the girl he used to like but broke his heart, merely by the fact that I wanted to live my life for God?

He ruined my orientation!

He ruined my experience here in Singapore!

He gave his friend my number to give out to people (and I'm not discounting the possibility that the andrea could be an account he created!!)

So is it my fault at all?? That he hates me in such a way to do something as RIDICULOUS and HORRIBLE as this???

Of course, this lead me to the verse today, that those who are in the wrong will get what they deserve.

My stand is to ignore them. Who knows. Maybe he is stalker enough to find this blog.

I wrote this entry to get this out of my chest. It's making me uncomfortable.

God, please allow me to claim the promises from you.

"Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you!" Isa 49:15

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart and you will find rest for your souls." Mt 11:28,29

God, I won't worry cos I'm grateful you're here, even when I'm such a sinner. Please take away this worry from me and guide me in my testimony to others. Pray that I'll be able to study hard and do my best!

It's raining.

Is God crying with me? For me? Or is it His way of comforting me?

(TAT) Stay Strong, Andrea!